I was driving to the hospital this morning to pick up Grayson and his nurse from his sleep study (it went fine) and this song came on the radio. I’ve heard it a million times but never really paid attention to the lyrics, until this morning. Tears flooded my eyes because this song is exactly how I feel right now. I’m tired, stressed, sad, and often wonder when the struggling is going to end. Yes, I do have a lot of joy in my life, but lately I feel like the sadness and stress (especially over Grayson’s undeniable regression- it feels as though he’s slowly slipping away) is winning.
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes
To keep on breathing
I’ve made mistakes
I’ve let my hope fail
My soul feels crushed
By the weight of this world
And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left
Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn
I know I need to lift my eyes up
But I’m too weak
Life just won’t let up
And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left
Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn
My prayers are wearing thin
Yeah, I’m worn
Even before the day begins
Yeah, I’m worn
I’ve lost my will to fight
I’m worn
So, heaven come and flood my eyes
Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause all that’s dead inside will be reborn
Though I’m worn
Yeah I’m worn
A New Version of Me 
I love this song SO much, I just wish it didn't resonate so well…Hugs, my sweet friend.
Love you. Sorry for the sadness. I wish I had more to offer. 😦
I love this song. It is actually my ringtone. I love the idea of redemption winning. Also the idea of everything that is dead can be reborn. Through the years of infertility and pregnancy loss and Matt's health issues, so much of who i was is dead, I can't even fathom having it back. This song means a lot to me.
Sending love and light. I can't imagine how hard it is. Abiding with you.
My heart wishes more than anything that you and your family and most especially Grayson didn't have to go through this struggle. ((HUGS))
Love tenth avenue north. Praying for you, strength and peace.
Giving you a hug from afar, my friend.
I wish so badly that I could offer anything. Words that actually helped in some way, to change Grayson's struggles, even a simple hug. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about your family.
Crying just reading those words! Holy smokes. Just *hugs* to you. You are amazing!
Praying for God's perfect timing. His promises are true and healing will come. God is good and will sustain you. Hugs!
Totally feeling your pain right now. Reagan just is not doing well either. From the random bruises, not sleeping, crying, nausea, and bad days…I'm spent!! Praying for better days for our little ones…sooner rather than later!