Worn

I was driving to the hospital this morning to pick up Grayson and his nurse from his sleep study (it went fine) and this song came on the radio. I’ve heard it a million times but never really paid attention to the lyrics, until this morning. Tears flooded my eyes because this song is exactly how I feel right now. I’m tired, stressed, sad, and often wonder when the struggling is going to end. Yes, I do have a lot of joy in my life, but lately I feel like the sadness and stress (especially over Grayson’s undeniable regression- it feels as though he’s slowly slipping away) is winning.

“Worn” by Tenth Avenue North
I’m Tired I’m worn
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes
To keep on breathing
I’ve made mistakes
I’ve let my hope fail
My soul feels crushed
By the weight of this world

And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn

I know I need to lift my eyes up
But I’m too weak
Life just won’t let up
And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn

My prayers are wearing thin
Yeah, I’m worn
Even before the day begins
Yeah, I’m worn
I’ve lost my will to fight
I’m worn
So, heaven come and flood my eyes

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause all that’s dead inside will be reborn

Though I’m worn
Yeah I’m worn

11 thoughts on “Worn

  1. I love this song. It is actually my ringtone. I love the idea of redemption winning. Also the idea of everything that is dead can be reborn. Through the years of infertility and pregnancy loss and Matt's health issues, so much of who i was is dead, I can't even fathom having it back. This song means a lot to me.

  2. I wish so badly that I could offer anything. Words that actually helped in some way, to change Grayson's struggles, even a simple hug. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about your family.

  3. Totally feeling your pain right now. Reagan just is not doing well either. From the random bruises, not sleeping, crying, nausea, and bad days…I'm spent!! Praying for better days for our little ones…sooner rather than later!

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