I have a new blog name! I had lots of good suggestions, but I think this one fits my journey at this point. Right now, I will still be blogging here at this address. I will probably switch over to WordPress eventually, but want to get my site set up exactly how I want it before I switch over there permanently. Plus, I realized how much I am attached to this little space- it’s going to be hard to change and leave it behind.
My dear friend Lisa actually came up with the new name. She and I were college roommates and were obsessed with the show Felicity…were you? Anyway, Lisa texted me that she was watching old episodes on Netflix, heard the intro song, and had the perfect name! Remember this?…
So while I’m not running off to New York chasing a guy I’ve spoken to once (although the running to New York part sounds tempting), I am definitely a different version of myself than when I started this blog almost three years ago. Physically, my body is softer and more disheveled, with two babies and not a lot of time or motivation to spend on my appearance. Mentally and emotionally, I’m stronger than I was, but not as strong as most people think I am. I’m definitely worlds more educated and informed on topics I would have never dreamed I would be interested (or forced to be interested) in.
I have the TimeHop app on my phone, which lets me see what I posted on Facebook on this date in years past. It’s so interesting to read old blog posts, especially my thoughts on Grayson before he was diagnosed, and even before we had any idea at all what was wrong. I’m often wistful for the version of myself who (for example, today, two years ago) worried about Grayson being small and teased for being small, and worried when he would sit up on his own. Instead, today I worry how long he has until our next hospital stay, and ultimately, how long he will live.
I’m sure as time goes on, I will continue to change and there will be new “versions” of myself. I hope someday I will have dreams and goals for myself outside of motherhood, besides my current lofty dream of a full night’s uninterrupted sleep. But honestly, I’m okay with where I am right now. I’m doing what I always wanted to do, and truly love being Grayson and Charlotte’s mom.
As always, thank you for reading, commenting, and supporting. Love you all!