I know I’ve reached my stress limit when my right eyelid starts to twitch. It used to happen every finals week in high school and college; now I would like to just roll my (twitching) eyes at my 18 year old self and say You think you’re stressed now?! Just wait- bwahahaha!
The ongoing stress trigger is the house being on the market. We’ve had a lot of showings, but no bites. The house looks nice, which is well, nice, but all our crap is packed away and I can’t find anything! I went to clip Grayson’s nails the other day. Where are his clippers? No idea. Twitch, twitch.
As you know, Izzy went to her new home Tuesday. It was and still is the absolute right decision for our family. She was a MESS. But we love her like crazy, and I miss her like crazy. I miss my little hot-water bottle snuggled up under the covers with me at night. And Ryan was super attached to her and is very sad. Twitch, twitch.
When I wrote about being jealous of big pregnant bellies, I don’t think I clarified why well enough. Since I measured so many weeks behind with Grayson, in my head, I equate a big belly with a healthy baby, which I know isn’t necessarily true one way or the other. I am definitely bigger this pregnancy than the last and the baby is moving a ton more than Grayson did, but I just wish I had a little more belly on me to reassure me that this is going to be ok. Is it going to be ok? Twitch, twitch.
Last night, I tried to write about what happened Wednesday, but just couldn’t. I was too tired, and too emotionally drained. The short version: Grayson had two major seizures on Wednesday, lasting 5 minutes and 13 minutes each. We spent the day in two ERs and one ambulance. He is ok and didn’t require a hospital stay, but there’s the worry of what this means and when it will happen again. Twitch, twitch.
I could really, really use a glass of wine right now!
Tomorrow we have a 3D “just for fun” ultrasound- I can’t wait! We did one with Grayson and it was a great experience. I am so excited to see what this little one looks like- I just hope the tech is good at keeping the gender a secret! We’ve made it this far without finding out and are in the home stretch now. If they slip and tell us (or if we see), then I will REALLY have a reason for my eye to twitch- ha!